BED, BATH & BEYOND BREAKDOWN
That’s my “I’ve got 85 more days with my boy and I’m wearing a foam finger” smile. That was May 24.
Today I more resemble the boy behind me, sort of a dumbfounded look saying “what’s going on here?” combined with Keegan’s look of “is this really happening?”
Alas, it really is happening. He’s leaving a week from today.
I’ve found, that breakdowns can really occur anywhere. I have no shame.
No one is immune. Even the pediatrician, as we are discussing one of my other sons, might be the unsuspecting victim of the ugly cry.
Even in church, as they honored Keegan in front of thousands of people on Sunday, I bawled. A friend thought of calling 911, as I was almost prone in the vicinity of pew 10. Woman down.
What about the customer service rep at Bed, Bath and Beyond when I lost one of my coupons yesterday? Is that really something to get choked up about?
Because she was so gracious about the coupon though, I wanted to ask her, what exactly is the “beyond” your sign so eloquently speaks of?
What will happen to me next week as all the bed and bath supplies are purchased and hanging in his new home? How will I feel when one less place is set at dinner? Or the first time he calls and says “Mom, I’m sick.” Or the Saturday morning I wake up and just want to have breakfast with him? Or at midnight when I wake up frantic because he hasn’t told me he’s home yet? Or the countless hugs and merciless teasing which will be absent from every day?
They should just call it Bed and Bath. AddingBeyond makes it sound exciting and I for one think it’s cruel. It implies there is something in that store to fill the hole in our home.
I searched the whole place yesterday, there isn’t a thing.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 10:53 am
Floyd, I’m the one who is honored to be featured on your great blog. Thank you!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 1:05 pm
The pleasure is all mine, and anyone who gets to read this. I appreciate the grim reality of an ending that is true life, expressed in a kind way, not a negative one. It’s a gift to be able to pull that off I think. Thanks again!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 11:06 am
It’s those little things that really grab you when a family member is missing.
You really captured that – great post!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 1:07 pm
Yes she did! It was a heart grabber for sure. Thanks Lainey.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 5:11 pm
Thank you Lainey, I appreciate you and your comment.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 9:50 pm
As our children leave home, it does leave an empty spot, but not in our heart. Beyond means “further ahead” – – – their own future is ahead of them, and we must rejoice with them, yet be sad in a way too. Beyond also means “around” – – they are around us and will always be a part of the family – – returning again at times, some visits short and others longer. (All 4 of ours left home and returned for short stays, some longer than the others.)
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 10:39 pm
“Beyond means further ahead.” From my perspective, that is absolutely brilliant. What wonderful wisdom. That is a game changer for sure. Your input seems to put everything in perspective. Thanks Hazel.
Thursday, September 1, 2011 @ 8:09 pm
Audra Krell? I am your newest “fan.” What a fantastic voice you have! And your message? Wow. My girls are 9 and 7, yet my heartstrings were done-strung and undone, girlfriend.
Thursday, September 1, 2011 @ 10:23 pm
Check out her site, she’s amazing!
Friday, September 2, 2011 @ 10:15 am
Thank you Jennifer. “Done-strung and undone” tells me we are friends already. I’m going to have to steal that! Every blessing to you as you raise up your sweet girls. It goes so fast, so love every second of it.
Saturday, September 3, 2011 @ 2:39 pm
I can’t imagine how my mom felt when I moved out. I came back from Africa on Saturday and was moved out on Sunday in a matter of hours. I’ve made it a point that I’d live simply and carefully before I’d move back in with the parents, and so far, I’ve successfully avoided it, through college, layoffs, financially backbreaking seasons and even some good ones. Either way, this was well-written!
Saturday, September 3, 2011 @ 3:38 pm
Audra is great… Nice too… I watched my wife go through this twice now, after the first one, I thought the second one would be easier for her and me… It wasn’t… Not really looking forward to the last one, I gotta say…
Thursday, September 15, 2011 @ 5:02 pm
Hello Floyd and Audra-
I am honored to know you both; Floyd more recently from his Ft. Hills Christian Writers’ presentation. My world is expanding with writing and technology; and I couldn’t be more fortunate to be guided by both of you.
Bed Bath and Beyond Breakdown…what a great title! what a talent to describe the experience in this way!
Thursday, September 15, 2011 @ 8:27 pm
Thanks Carol! I’d say we’re all a little more blessed to get to share some pieces of our lives with one another.
I agree, I think Audra’s post was one for the ages, especially for those of us who have gone through it or are heading that direction.